Confession

Late at night.. Lately..
Immagine a simple girl in a simple world.
I did so many things in my life.. And unfortunately not so many things have changed..

I did so many things in my short life and yet I think I'm unable to live my life.


FP in progress. I've read most of the information and news. I know that I know more than others. People text me and e-mail me with questions: where? when? what?
I do not feel like an expert. Definitely no.
I'm scared. But I guess it's normal when you decide to abandon your country and live your life somewhere else. Alone. I'll be almost like a hermit. Living alone with my feelings and thoughts. It's not good for me at all but what can I do?


IELTS in a week. I'd be lying if I say I'm not scared or I don't care. I care. And I am scared. But this fear is nothing to compare with what's about to happen next year at this time.
Two heavy suitcases and 'one way ticket'. Where? I don't know yet.


I was wondering why my coleagues decide to go back to small towns to begin their medical careers? I mean.. these places are boring, nothing happens there, people gossip and everybody knows everybody.
Then I've decided to spent my last long summer holidays at my hometown. A small town.
I live my life like everybody else in here. Cleaning, cooking, gardening.. and working.
Now I see. Life is simple. When you are 24 and you want to get married, have kids and a usual place to work - a small town is a perfect place to live. Most of al - it's simple!
I have to admit, I like it. Mowing the lawn, weeding, baking, shopping, cleaning ect.
It's great! ..but not for me. At least not when I'm 24 and I still want to see half of the things in the world.


So I guess.. constant searching for some adventure to achieve what I want - that's my destiny.

Sunny day

I can't remember when this whole idea has started. About Med School I mean.
Anyway it had to be somewhere in my head because nowadays I'm just about to finish 5th year of Medicine and start my last year in Poland. Currently I'm reading a lot about Foundation Programme in the UK, searching for all necessary information and trying to deal with all paper work and decisions where, when and how to get to my FY1 ;)