Late at night.. Lately..
Immagine a simple girl in a simple world.
I did so many things in my life.. And unfortunately not so many things have changed..
I did so many things in my short life and yet I think I'm unable to live my life.
FP in progress. I've read most of the information and news. I know that I know more than others. People text me and e-mail me with questions: where? when? what?
I do not feel like an expert. Definitely no.
I'm scared. But I guess it's normal when you decide to abandon your country and live your life somewhere else. Alone. I'll be almost like a hermit. Living alone with my feelings and thoughts. It's not good for me at all but what can I do?
IELTS in a week. I'd be lying if I say I'm not scared or I don't care. I care. And I am scared. But this fear is nothing to compare with what's about to happen next year at this time.
Two heavy suitcases and 'one way ticket'. Where? I don't know yet.
I was wondering why my coleagues decide to go back to small towns to begin their medical careers? I mean.. these places are boring, nothing happens there, people gossip and everybody knows everybody.
Then I've decided to spent my last long summer holidays at my hometown. A small town.
I live my life like everybody else in here. Cleaning, cooking, gardening.. and working.
Now I see. Life is simple. When you are 24 and you want to get married, have kids and a usual place to work - a small town is a perfect place to live. Most of al - it's simple!
I have to admit, I like it. Mowing the lawn, weeding, baking, shopping, cleaning ect.
It's great! ..but not for me. At least not when I'm 24 and I still want to see half of the things in the world.
So I guess.. constant searching for some adventure to achieve what I want - that's my destiny.
