The night before..

It was easy to predict.. I had to have a beer just one day before the exam.. The day is today! Tonight actually.. ;)
I've prepared half of the questions which we have.. and the second half need to wait until tomorrow.
Cause now I'm enjoying my beer and browsing ELLEs website. And "Oh My!" I love these shoes and bags and sunglasses..! And "Oh My!" it will be better for me to work 80 hours per week to do not have time to spend all my money on clothes and accessories!!! :)

It was really great to know that people appreciated my hard work and my result from the exam, although I need to take it once again. Especially, it was lovely to hear from someone who knows how is it to prepare and to take this exam. Someone who does realize how important is it and who can always give me a piece of advice.

Lately, I'm saving money to have some cash for beginning a brand new chapter of my life in England. In July, hopefully!
Enough! ELLEs website is waiting! ;)

Results

Seriously! I've no idea whether should I cry or should I laugh out loud! :)

My IELTS exam results: overall 8,0; listening 8,5; reading 9,0; writing 7,0(!!!); speaking 7,5.
In general this result is fantastic! Except writing.. and I need to retake the exam!

I got 78% in Ob&Gyn test ;) and oral part is on Monday! So I'm going back to study hard! ;)

What do we post on-line?

It is quite complicated to create a blog which suits us perfectly. Personally, I've changed the address several times until I've found The Best One. Another thing is the whole design which should be both simple but eye-catching.

At BMJ website I've read a couple of paragraphs about med students, nurses and doctors who posted too many information or pictures on their blogs, websites or Twitter about their colleagues and patients. Finally someone started to consider it as a seriuos and real problem. Frequently people cross the line without realising it. Maybe now young adults are going to be more carefull about exchanging news and saying what unusual has happened in the hospital today.

It took me a while to decide what to do next, after my graduation. And here's the plan - finally! Firstly, I'll try to find a job via NHS as a HCA or paramedic. However, I'll prepare all the documents to apply for an Internship in Poland, just in case, to do not close my way back. I hope I'll love my occupation in the UK, though.

And today, on BBC Three at 9.00 pm Junior Doctors: Your Life In Their Hands. :)

Divorced

Currently I'm studying for Ob&Gyn exam and.. well.. I remember what one of the doctors said when he wanted to compare us with the students in US. He literally said "You do not study at all!" ..how comforting!

I have absolutely no idea how my IELTS exam went. What is more, I wonder if it's worth to try again if I didn't get 7,5 from each domain.. I know I should keep trying, but I'm going to feel more like a looser who is unable to succeed. We'll see.. Up till now I continue to read english blogs about medicine and I'm asking myself when I'll finally end up in the UK practicing medicine..

I'm a divorced woman. Yes. I understood I got divorced with some of my closest friends. I've been writing previously about all the mess between us and although our situation has changed for better, it is never going to be the same again. I love both of them but there are several things which they will not forgive me. For instance, keeping in touch or sleeping from time to time with their biggest enemies.. Or "stealing" their dreams.
To be clear, a year ago when we've been talking about our future internship, I kept saying that I desire to participate in the Foundation Programme, whereas my friend wanted to find an occupation in our capital. Well, both dreams ain't coming true. I've failed and cannot start FP 2012 and she couldn't find any address where she could register to become a citizen of Warsaw. In few months situation altered markedly. I've visited our capital and became amazed by the city so much that now I seriously consider it as a place in the world where I could live in the future.

And this is what I call "Stealing dreams". I stole somebodys dream about becoming Ob&Gyn, I stole the dream about living in Warsaw and I do realize I'm sleeping occasionally with my friends enemy.. I'm nothing but pure evil.
And this is why I had to divorce my friends. Metaphorically of course.
I'm really sorry about that but life goes on. And so does my studies, so I'm going back to work hard and pass this Ob&Gyn exam.

In short..

To begin with, just 2 days left till IELTS. No comment. In my opinion I could have work more, however I do realize that I've been working all the time. Clearly this is exactly what perfectionists say: I know I've been working 24/7 nonetheless I should have practice more. Someone not mentally ill would ask "Practice more? When???" And I would say "It was possible! To sleep less, do not watch TV, do not go out.. But that would actually cause my mental illness.
I only hope that this time I'll get 7,5.. God, I beg you....

I wonder why I'm so lazy. And where did my enthusiasm disappear? I hate exams and on our last year of studies we have ten of them. I hate memorizing books and quite often I'm wondering whether those people remember easily literally everything they read or they just work so hard to remember every line from the book. And people do that, all over the world! I should have study more, but I hate memorizing things! I learn by doing things so when Ihave to prepare for something, I read, learn, think it through and then I do it.
Anyway, I cannot memorize books or a bank of questions because if I do not understand something, there's no chance I'll remember it.

Lately, I've heard some good news. My brother found a new girlfriend (luckily!) and he asked me to which part of the UK I intend to go. I have no idea where, however it is lovely to know that he and his new girlfriend plan to go to the UK as well. It would be fantastic to have him around and to know that actually there is someone who'd help me if I need a hand.
 
In brief, I need to pass IELTS, finish my studies (in less than 6 months, yeay!!!), take my brother to the UK with me and become a responsible (and educated!!!!!) Junior Doctor! :)