poniedziałek, 19 marca 2012

Blurry future

Like I've said - Swedish internship faded away. I called this HR agency and they've explained me why I'm not eligible for these posts. However, they told me to re-write my CV again and emphasize all my medical experience in order to become a perfect candidate to work in a hospital. What is more, the lady mentioned that I might be a suitable candidate to work in one of the private hospitals as a Medical Assistant - or something like that.
Well.. let's hope for that.

6 weeks and 4 days at the Univ left and 8 exams.
Do you know why I count so frequently this time which we've left? I wish I could press FF button, cause I want to know so badly where I'll end up in the nearest and furthest future! :)

Besides, the Internet scares me!!!
I've met a guy who I haven't seen in a long time. We talked a bit and when I wanted to text him later I've noticed I've lost his mobile phone number. At least I thought I lost it - how it is possible to memorise somebody's number in your phone and then to not be able to find it?! Well.. I'm extraordinary I guess! :) So I decided to find him somewhere online. I typed his full name and surname and what I've found..? His photos on some Model Management Agency's website! Lovely photos, by the way! :) I continued to stare at them for a while.. Too bad he's married.. I knew that this kind of guy couldn't be single for long.

I guess I'll try really hard to cover my presence on-line.

niedziela, 11 marca 2012

Songs

Did I ever mention that long time ago I've chosen to do not listen to whiny romantic songs?
You may call me a miserable lonely girl who's been hurt, call it as you like, but still I'll tell you that I do not believe in love. Someone somehow made me not to believe. Or I should say: I let him to crush whatever it was that I beleved in.

Don't get me wrong, I have several favourite love songs. One of them is "Wicked game", but still: the song does not tell a happy love story, so...
If I can I choose sad songs about broken hearts. At least I do understand the lyrics perfectly.

At the University 8 weeks and 8 exams left. Did I mention before that I can't wait 'till the end of it? :)

środa, 7 marca 2012

Interviews

Several weeks ago, I've been lying in my bed and I've been thinking over and over again about my life. Suddenly, I got up, made a firm decision and begun to apply for every job, which was possible to start from July 2012. I decided that I just need to find something before FP 2013 will start. Most of the replies which I've recived the next day, mainly from hospitals, were "Too soon to say.", "Too early to apply.", "I'm afraid we're looking for someone right now." so I've send few emails to Polish job agencies, which cooperate with the agencies in the UK.

Yesterday I've had my first phone interview with one of the English job agencies, which hires people to work as a Live-In-Carer. Some of their questions surprised me, but in general the lady I talked to was pleased about my answers and asked me to participate in a Training Week organised in the UK. In my case, the best thing in this job is that I'll have a place to stay from the beginning and money is great. However, if we consider amount of hours spent on doing things it might turn out I'd earn per hour much less than most of the people. Besides, I'd have only 2 hours each day for myself and for instance 1 week of vacation after 4 weeks of work. As for a curious 25 years old woman who can't wait untill meeting new friends, not being able to go out and travel might be a huge problem..

So I've called another job agency in Poland, which at least once in a month organises an interview with a possible employer, to find out how can I get a Care Assistant job in a nursing home or a hospital. Although money which I'd get would be enough only to pay the bills and it would be hard to save some cash for later, I'd be obliged to work full time (plus overhours..yay!!!:)) and spend my free time as I want. Besides, I'd live wherever I want and go out with whoever I want. When we've begun to discuss details and I've mentioned I'm going to become a Junior Doctor soon, she asked me about an Internship in the UK. I've explaind her my situation briefly and she said: "Well, there is another option. You could consider doing your internship in Sweden. You just need to agree for the 3 months training with language course and then to work there for at least 12 months."

I don't know how many of you would agree immediately for such opportunity to gain completely new experience right after hearing it, but honestly, in 99% I've been ready to say "Yes, please! Where do I sign?". Am I crazy? :)

So hopefully I'll be between choosing Live-In-Carer job, HCA job and an Internship in Sweden (!!!), however these things are so fresh and tentative that they might as well fade away as quickly as they have appeard.Nevertheless, I'll still be searching for some occupation relted to my field of studies.

sobota, 3 marca 2012

Ordinary days

Firstly, I would like to say big "Hello!" for the first three observers who decided to follow me and my way to make my dreams come true :)

Several months ago, in October, when I've realized I'm unable to apply for the FP 2012 and I've had no idea what to do next, I wouldn't even predict that so many external factors will come up in my life and influence my decision about leaving this place.
To make things clear: I'm definitely going to prepare all necessary documents to apply for the Internship in Poland and I will send these papers to whoever is going to be responsible for its organisation, however I'll do whatever I can to find a job, any kind of job, in the UK to begin my life over there.
Maybe I need to start from the lowest rung in the ladder of my life and career, so I could climb higher everyday and finally reach the top..

Although I learn English and continue to practice it everyday, I am aware that it is still not enough to speak to the patients and other doctors. When it comes to my English, the lack of confidence in my case might turn out to be petrifying..

My days are so ordinary lately.. No stress at the Univ, no exciting news. Maybe except the fact that one of my Uni-friends made me not to speak to her and not to keep in touch with her any longer. One day she's just said out loud how is she feeling about my huge UK-plans and suggested that it's more likely I'll end up in Poland, begging on the street for some extra money cause my polish salary won't be enough for me.. My blood pressure has jumped rapidly, I clenched my teeth, bit my tounge and didn't even try to defend myself, simply cause she's impossible to discuss with. Then I've just slurred quietly "F*ck yourself.. just wait and we'll see..". Such arguments only make me want to leave even more..


Anyway, in 26 days I'll be 25 :) Magical day! I've said it before - I'm going to make the next 5 years of my life, The Best Time in my life ever! :) Keep your fingers crossed for that!